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Happy New Year :)

Dec. 31st, 2009 | 09:43 pm
mood: hopefulhopeful


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My life according to QUEEN (and to let yall know im still alive :)

Aug. 1st, 2009 | 10:17 pm
mood: lovedloved

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "my life according to (band name)".

Pick your Artist

Are you a male or female?
Sweet Lady

Describe yourself:
I Want It All

How do you feel:
I'm Going Slightly Mad

Describe where you currently live:
Long Away

If you could go anywhere, where would you go?
Leaving Home Ain't Easy

Your favourite form of transportation:
I'm In Love With My Car

Your best friend?
You're My Best Friend

You and your best friends are:
Dear Friends

What's the weather like:
Rain Must Fall

Favourite time of day:
It's Late

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
Let Me Entertain You

What is life to you:
Life Is Real

Your relationship:
Love Of My Life

Your fear:

What is the best advice you have to give:
Don't Try Suicide

Thought for the Day:
These Are The Days Of Our Lives

How I would like to die:
Sheer Heart Attack  (not really.. ow)

My soul's present condition:
All Dead, All Dead

My motto:
The Show Must Go On

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aww 2 updates within 30 days of each other.

Mar. 5th, 2009 | 01:56 pm
location: poor house
mood: stressedstressed
music: sound of an empty wallet

hmm k well.. went for a visit with my doctor yesterday.  my general doctor.  i wrenched my knee pretty good doing lunges a couple weeks ago.. and since it wasn't getting any better i went to see her.  apparently it was pretty inflamed.  as was my ear drum.  around the same time i lost most of the hearing in my right ear.  now anyone who knows me knows i have like.. super sonic hearing usually.  so the difference was intense.  so she gave me some antibiotic shot and it should clear up the inflammation and infection in my ear and knee.  other than those things i'd say i'm doing really well.  plateaued a little but that's to be expected since i've not been able to do a lot of exercise because of my knee.  but all in all i'm still good. 
financially ron and i are soooooo screwed.  we had to borrow money from his mom to help with the mortgage.  the electric bill is 238.. i've had to file with a debt management program to get my stupid credit card interest rates lowered.  one of them was at 30% interest.  and because of my little incident in the car last august, my insurance is a bit higher.. i cant really complain about that though cause its only 130 for 2 cars.. one with comprehensive coverage.  could be way worse i suppose. 
finally got a new cell phone yesterday.  our old one wouldn't hold a charge.  (we don't have a land line.. no need for one with the cell really)  that bill is 55 a month and its unlimited minutes to anywhere in the us.  200 roaming minutes.  i love our cell phone company. 
our cable and internet is only 55 a month.  so its not horrible. 
mostly just our mortgage.. our other loan payments and my school loan and electric bill that's pretty much dragging us down.  we will make it work though.  we always do.  somehow or another.  

anyone wanna portrait done of anyone?  ill do it cheap.  lol 25 bucks.  (so i can renew my only fun outlet of world of warcraft) LOL 
obviously not serious.  actually i need 25 bucks for my med alert bracelet i'm supposed to wear now.  oh well. 


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omf.. TOTALLY updated even

Feb. 17th, 2009 | 05:10 pm
location: office
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: whatever is on cartoon network right now.

figured it was time i wrote a lil something. 

well its been awhile since i wrote anything about my progress with my weight goes.  so .. here it is. 
im officially down 75 pounds.  im at 163 for the first time since.. i dunno.. A LONG FREAKIN TIME.   there are pros and cons to this though. 
yes.. i can finally shop again in the NON plus size sections...
however, im broke and cant afford new clothes heh

i look somewhat better than i did
but my hair is falling out in handfuls (even though im drinking truckloads of protein)

that huge layer of fat is almost completely gone
but my bones are poking through to the point of almost being painful.  (seriously i cannot sit on a hard chair for very long)

all in all though.. i have to say i feel soooooo much better.  i think i look a little better.  and if asked "would you do it all over again" ... DEFINITELY.  its rough but totally worth it.  my life has changed so much for the better.  even sex is better.. sorry for the overshare but .. deal with it.  heh. 

in other news... well theres not any other news.. i dont think.  oh.. well my car is dying.
yeah, thats it. 

later :) 

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stolen.. :) thanks ghostie

Aug. 25th, 2008 | 06:35 pm
location: far away from the kitchen
mood: hungryhungry
music: sound of my tummy rumbling

Let's Meme! Bold the ones that you've eaten.

1. Venison
2. Nettle tea
3. Huevos rancheros (my former future step father in law is a chef, this was his signature dish)
4. Steak tartare (tried it.. ill have my steak a little more done next time kthanks)
5. Crocodile
6. Black pudding
7. Cheese fondue
8. Carp
9. Borscht
10. Baba ghanoush
11. Calamari
12. Pho
13. PB&J sandwich
14. Aloo gobi
15. Hot dog from a street cart (always wanted to though)
16. Epoisses
17. Black truffle
18. Fruit wine made from something other than grapes (my daddy made blackberry wine)
19. Steamed pork buns

20. Pistachio ice cream (one of my faves)
21. Heirloom tomatoes
22. Fresh wild berries (just ate some not too long ago from my back yard)

23. Foie gras
24. Rice and beans
25. Brawn, or head cheese (nothing with the word head and cheese in the same sentence should ever be eaten)
26. Raw Scotch Bonnet pepper
27. Dulce de leche (oh yum)
28. Oysters (havent had them in a long time)
29. Baklava (mouth watering now)

30. Bagna cauda
31. Wasabi peas
32. Clam chowder in a sourdough bowl

33. Salted lassi
34. Sauerkraut
35. Root beer float

36. Cognac with a fat cigar
37. Clotted cream tea (i aint eatin/drinkin nothin with the word clotted in it)
38. Vodka jelly/Jell-O
39. Gumbo

40. Oxtail
41. Curried goat
42. Whole insects (not even if dipped in chocolate)
43. Phaal
44. Goat’s milk
45. Malt whisky from a bottle worth £60/$120 or more (what can i say .. i lik-a-the-drinky)
46. Fugu
47. Chicken tikka masala (i may have had this but i cant remember if thats what it was called)
48. Eel
49. Krispy Kreme original glazed doughnut (strangely not a fan)
50. Sea urchin
51. Prickly pear
52. Umeboshi
53. Abalone
54. Paneer
55. McDonald’s Big Mac Meal (yes and it sucked)
56. Spaetzle

57. Dirty gin martini
58. Beer above 8% ABV (Tenacious Cassis@ 16.9% among others at Kuhnhenn) (just tried some the other day at my friend Joe's)
59. Poutine
60. Carob chips
61. S’mores
62. Sweetbreads

63. Kaolin
64. Currywurst
65. Durian
66. Frogs’ legs
67. Beignets, churros, elephant ears or funnel cake
68. Haggis
69. Fried plantain
70. Chitterlings, or andouillette (oh yes honey ive eaten my chittlins before) LOL
71. Gazpacho
72. Caviar and blini (eeyughuph <--the sound i made when i ate caviar)
73. Louche absinthe
74. Gjetost, or brunost
75. Roadkill
76. Baijiu
77. Hostess Fruit Pie
78. Snail
79. Lapsang souchong
80. Bellini
81. Tom yum
82. Eggs Benedict
83. Pocky

84. Tasting menu at a three-Michelin-star restaurant.
85. Kobe beef
86. Hare
87. Goulash
88. Flowers

89. Horse
90. Criollo chocolate
91. Spam
92. Soft shell crab
93. Rose harissa
94. Catfish
95. Mole poblano (ooh i loved having a chef in the family, too bad he sucked and is now banished from my sight)
96. Bagel and lox (aww i would eat this while chatting on mIRC)
97. Lobster Thermidor
98. Polenta
99. Jamaican Blue Mountain coffee
100. Snake (my brother is a big fan)

53/100! What's your score?

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The entry youve all been waiting for!!!!

Jul. 18th, 2008 | 05:04 pm
location: A Sauna, apparently
mood: annoyedannoyed

ok so, not really.  just couldnt think of a good subject header thing.  figured it was about time i wrote something though.  sadly though ... not much to write about in the way of exciting things.  i could write about boring things probably.  ok .. ill do that. 
ok not sure if i wrote about it when it happened or not but.. about a year ago... i had surgery on my lower left leg to have a fatty tumor deposit thing (lipoma) removed.  it had been bothering me for some time.  especially when i walked long distances.  turns out it was pressing on some nerves inside my leg causing a cramp like feeling when i walked.  so my doctor sent me to a surgeon.  the surgeon looked at it and said it needed to be removed and that he could either do it in his office under local anesthetic or in the hospital under general anesthesia.  i chose hospital because.. well i get queasy when they take blood, so i dont think i could manage knowing he was cutting into my leg while i was awake.  so he scheduled the surgery for the following week.  i was to be there at 6 am. 
so i get there at 6 and im supposed to be pre registered but apparently they lost the order for it.  so i have to go through all that again.  and i sit in the waiting room from 6 till around 10 or 11am.  and FINALLY they took me up to ready me for surgery.  the room wasnt too bad it was private with a tv and Ron was allowed to be there with me.  it even had a pull out toilet from under a cabinet.  (hey it was the first of its kind id ever seen... i was fascinated) 
they come into the room and ask me a bazillion questions.  start an IV.  (to which i became light headed and my blood pressure dropped and my heart rate went down into the 40's.... yeah i know im a wimp) and then the anesthesia dude comes in and asks me the same bazillion questions.. what are you allergic to.. what medicines are you on.. how tall .. weight.. blah blah blah... and about 10 minutes later.. another anesthesiologist comes in and asks the same ones again.  i was like.. wow .. yall are thorough.  around 12 they moved me to another pre-op room and gave me something that was supposed to make me relax.  uh.. yeah right.. i think it worked opposite for me.. i became extremely nervous and was contemplating ways that i could get out of the surgery.. in my mind i was going "ok they would prolly kill me if i were to say nevermind about all this"  but i ended up going through with it. 
finally i was wheeled into the OR and was surprised by the two anesthesiologists there.. apparently they both were free at that time and they each thought they were the only one on the case.. so i kinda felt safe knowing i had two of them there.  they put the mask on that smells like rubber and feet and tell you to breathe.. and they administered the white lovely stuff that makes ya sleep.. but it burns going in man. 
next thing i remember.. im waking up and i cant breathe.. i am trying to tell them that i cant get any air in.. im thrashing and im pretty sure i hit people.. and im totally not getting any air in my lungs.. i was panicking big time.. and in my mind i though.. oh god.. this is it .. im totally dying.. this sucks.. and thats the last thing i remember till i woke up in that little room where Ron was waiting.  i was shocked that i woke up.  but oh so glad. 
after i woke up abit.. they wanted me to get up and try to put pressure on the leg.  so i did.. and it didnt really hurt.. i guess because of the local they had put in too..my leg from the incision down was completely numb. 
so we left the hospital after i was discharged and Ron just had to take me to Walmart to get my prescriptions.. and he wheels me around to the electronics department where he works and all his coworkers are there and im sitting in a wheelchair in my winnie the pooh pajama top and gym shorts with bed head and still half baked.  after walmart we went home and i slept the rest of the day. 
Ron pretty much waited on me because it was hard to walk on a numb leg even though it wasnt that painful.  and after a week i had to go get my staples removed.  the surgeon took them out and applied 3 little paper strips across the incision and asked me how the pain was.. i said.. i couldnt feel anything.. he looked at me kinda strangely and asked .. "how come"  i said "i dont know you tell me your the one who did the surgery"  he said "well we didnt cut any nerves"  and with that he proceeded to run his thumbnail fairly hard up my foot several times.. i felt nothing.  i could have stuck a needle in there and not felt it.  he said "well it will come back with time"  so i figured it would.
a couple days after the staples were removed i noticed a drainage from the wound.  i called the surgeon and he said it was just healing.. that it wasnt anything to worry about.  so i trusted him and as the week went by.. the incision started to open and draining more.  the paper strips he put on there had fallen off and it had begun to swell and open up.  so i went to my family doctor and she swabbed the open wound and apparently i had a staph infection.  so she gave me antibiotics.  it took about 2 more weeks to get rid of the infection and about 2 more for the wound to finally close.  so what was supposed to be a simple surgery with a less than an inch scar.. turned into a really bad experience and a huge hole of a scar.  and guess what.. i still cant feel anything much from my 3 last toes, up the top of my foot, all the way up to the incision.  the funny thing is.. when i touch around the area.. i feel it in other parts of my leg and foot.  like if i touch my last toe.. i feel it somewhere around my ankle.  its really weird.  and i cant wear anything over the top of my foot because for some reason it REALLY hurts.  yet i cant feel it really when i touch it with my fingers.  crazy.
ok now that i grossed you all out and bored you to tears.  ill tell you about one other thing.. then ill shut up

i went blonde.  or well tried to go blonde.. i go to the salon.. show her a picture of the cut and colour i want... she says ok.. puts some stuff on my head that smells like pure ammonia and burns slightly.. leaves it on for 45 minutes.. washes it out.. it barely brough any colour out.  so she mixes up something that is supposed to bring me super platinum blonde.. and puts it on my already slightly burning head.  all i can say is .. OW.   the stuff actually BLISTERED my head.  and didnt even bring me all that blonde.. instead im like.. strawberry blondish.  brassy as can be.  i hate it but what can i do.  i woke up with my hair matted together in the back because of the blisters.  ill not be doing that again.  not anytime soon.  so im gonna be one of those women with blonde hair and black roots.  yay.

ok .. that is all

PS  we dont have air conditioning again. 

i love my life

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boring update

Feb. 15th, 2008 | 07:14 pm
location: living room
mood: dorkydorky

 well,  lets see,  i thought i would update for a change.   not a whole lot going on.  just basically hanging out doing what i do best.  nothing.  ive been blowing money on used, sometimes old,  sometimes filthy barbie dolls at goodwill lately.  in fact i bought some today.  if your wondering what in the world im buying barbies for,  i like cleaning them up and redoing their make-up and re-rooting their hair.  (yes you can buy doll hair online <dollyhair.com> and re-root it into their head).  so ive been doing a lot of that lately.  i make new clothes and style them and  you can even "perm"  a dolls hair.  weird aint it?  'course its only with boiling water but hey google it its neat.   you can even resell them as OOAK or "one of a kind".  i mostly just keep them for myself though.  i used to collect barbies when i was a kid so i guess im trying to relive my childhood.  so if anyone has any old barbies they wanna get rid of,  i totally want them.  .. SERIOUSLY :) 

hmm what else is there.  as usual my weight is on an up and down roller coaster. i will be turning 30 later this month (or 29 for those of you who dont know me as well or think i can pull that off for a few more years) and i know there has to be a change in my life or .. ill be lucky to see 40.  so,  ive been approved for the Lap-Band procedure due to my co-morbidities.  diabetes, blood pressure, other crap.  please dont tell me if i just work harder or eat less or excersise more ill lose it on my own.  cause if ya dont think ive tried everything there is,  youre flippin crazy. i only say this because ive had mixed reactions from some members of my extended family.  (the skinny ones of course) but,  ive been on 1239237497 different diets from weight watchers to atkins and from starving myself to throwing up and laxative abuse.  i dont eat like a bear.  i realize i dont excersise enough and i dont always eat the right things but i am by no means constantly stuffing my face with cake and candy. 

something else about my health.  when i went in to have a sleep study for clearance for the lap band surgery,  instead of having sleep apnea which is one of the co morbidities,  i apparently have a mild case of narcolepsy.  i have to go in for another sleep study in march.  an extended one with naps or something.  i just have to go off of my zoloft for 3 weeks before because its a REM suppressing drug.  hopefully i dont go all manic or depressed.  

ron and i are good.  hanging in there like always.  still yet to have a huge fight.  i think were doing alright!   love him bunches!

k.. anyway, this laptop is burning my leg something awful so .. untill next time my faithful readers

or something



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Nov. 9th, 2007 | 05:05 pm
location: my living room
mood: gratefulgrateful
music: some crap on E!

im bored.  

so i figured i will update my journal a little just so i can say i updated.  
i just got home from a 3 week trip to my hometown.  i had fun.  i always love spending time with my family.  i really missed Ron though.  he stayed home for work.  and believe me we really do need the money right now. 
its a good thing that we dont really do a whole lot for the holidays cause if we did.  we would totally be in for it.  we already owe up to our eyeballs.  i mean hello! we are gonna be paying on this house for the rest of our natural lives.  not to mention the other loans weve had to take out just to consolidate other bills like my school loan and crap like that.  oh well, i cant complain too much though i have a lot to be thankful for.  and we totally live comfortably.  uber comfortably compared to many.  i guess im just never satisfied. heh.
thats bout it for now.  who knows i may update again before the new year :) 

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Aug. 15th, 2007 | 12:44 pm
mood: hothot
music: the sound of sweat rolling off my body

we have NO AIR CONDITIONING!  *dies*

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look what i found in my front yard this morning

May. 6th, 2007 | 05:00 pm
location: snake country
mood: nervousnervous

Today as Ron was leaving for work, he opened the front door to a nice surprise... about a 4-5 foot long Black Racer snake.  he was like "uhh apryl, theres a snake on the porch" so i got up to look and it had already moved to the grass but it was so fast i barely caught the tail of it.  so after ron left.  i went to the bedroom window to see if i could see it again, and i found a small garter snake directly under my bedroom window poking its little head up as still as it could be.  i was like wow its national snake day or something.  as i was watching the little garter snake .. i caught a glimpse of something a little farther up in the grass, then suddenly the little garter snake took off and after it the big black racer.  and "CHOMP" poor garter snake.  anyway i watched the racer completely consume the garter.. and .. apparently just bask in the sun for a while.  kinda creepy.  so.. anyway i filmed this with my camcorder thats kinda older so its not the best of quality but .. heres the stills i got from it.  

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